So the countdown is on…10 days until my husband is officially a Firefighter. He completed Burn Week the week before last where they did fire attack drills and scenarios in the burn building. He rode the fire engine to “the scene” which was on fire and did search and rescue, forcible entry, ventilation and then did below, above and at grade attack to fight the fire with his squad.
He has passed all of his tests (Hazmat, Firefighter I and Firefighter II), he has returned his training turnout gear and all he has left to complete next week is car seat training. Car seat training?? We have 3 kids so he is pretty much a master car seat installer but I’m sure he will still learn a few things.
So he is ready. But am I?
I’ve been reading blogs by other Fire Wives for several years as we have been going through this process and there are a few posts that I’ve read that have stuck with me. One being Definition: Fire Wife which is a somewhat humorous description of what I feel I can expect day to day as a Fire Wife and the other being What Every Firefighter’s Spouse Should Know which is the one that makes me wonder…am I ready?
First, let’s look at what I AM ready for. I’m ready for my husband to have a job he loves and feels good about. I’m ready for all of the exciting life saving stories. I’m ready for him to meet new people and be a part of a fire station family. I’m ready for the 24 hour shifts and nights alone with the kids and handling things without him. I’m independent and I can deal with that. I think I’m even ready for the holiday traditions he might miss because we can adjust and come up with new ones. I’m definitely ready for the handsome firefighter uniform.
Now for the things I’m not so sure I’m ready for. The worry. The danger. The emotions. The lack of sleep. These are only a few but as I list these things I think to myself that just like the Firefighters have the ERG (Emergency Response Guidebook) I have access to one too. God’s Word, my ERG. So in preparation of what is to come I’ve come up with my Fire Wife ERG of scriptures.
When I’m worried:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. (Philippians 4:6 NIV)
When I’m afraid:
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. (Joshua 1:9 NIV)
When I’m concerned:
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze. (Isaiah 43:2 NIV)
When I’m weary:
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28 NIV)
I’ll be adding more to this list. God’s Word is all I need. Every answer is in there. There is no better comfort or encouragement. No other place to find hope and peace.
So the answer is yes. I’m ready.